As the big day nears I can't help but think about the mind-blowing fact that these are the last few days of us being a child-less couple. Today is the last Wednesday without having a son or daughter and it is awesome in every sense of the word. I'm honestly surprised that the fear and anxiousness I had anticipated experiencing near the zero hour are nowhere to be found. Instead I find myself left with a sense of wonder at the entire process of life and the amazing history of our species on this planet.
It reminds me of "Third Planet," a song about new fatherhood, by Modest Mouse.
I also must grudgingly admit that I am beginning to see how creating new life is, as mom has always said, a miracle. Not necessarily in the small-scale sense of the replication of life on this planet, or our ability as two people to have a child, but the sheer unlikeliness of 1.) our existence in the vastness of the universe, and 2.) our continuation in the vastness of the universe. Given the billions upon billions of solar systems out there, bringing a child into the world is like winning a cosmic lottery. It is, as stated previously, mind blowing.
Peace.
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